Andrew's wedding

I totally regret going. I really should not have been there, I felt like rolling my eyes at everything. I am also really mad at George right now. I can't touch him let alone look at him. I don't know why I married him in the first place, am already considering divorce. Seriously. I already took my rings off, I am going to let the ring tan line go away. Just thinking about him makes me want to throw up right now. I feel so betrayed by him, I know now that I cannot trust him. I do realize one thing, I love myself way more than I ever loved George.

Summary of events yesterday

I got up and watched some Rizzole and Isles on tv.( it is an awesome show) I had the show on record. Then I straightened my hair (was having a great hair day), and put on my makeup. I got dressed and was pretty comfortable until later on in the day when I discovered that the dress could not really support my boobies.
George got ready at the last minute and then we took off to pick up Karine.
She got a haircut and has really blunt bangs now (I love it), She was wearing a pretty cream and dark blue dress with converse on lol. She just carried her heels separately. We gave her her presents (we forgot to give them their gifts long time ago). Then we took off to the church.

When we got to the church we scored parking right in front which was free whohoo. The people in the church weren't many about 33 people total. They were all white in exception of the bitch's mom. Who looked exactly like the bitch with a whole bunch of bumps on her face. She has some kind of disease. George's mom was sitting with her. Fred did not come because he was not invited. Karine sat between George and I (which was good because I didn't particularly feel warm toward him still). During the ceremony the stupid pastor said that Andrew was now leaving his parents to join into one with the bitch. Hahahahhaha. I felt like puking throughout the entire 2 hour ceremony. It was just so hypocritical and full of shit. these people pretend to be all religious but they don't live their lives like that. they are all liars. You can't say that you are caring and forgive and respect others and then not do it. I was just like, god own up to who you are. they were just all so full of it. Anyways blahblah blah the ceremony finally ends and I am so happy that its over. I was thinking finally we are gonna get fed.I was wrong. We end up standing around, I was standing with Karine while George went to his mom and somewhere else. We chatted with this guy Dan who was friends with Andrew and Joseph a long time ago. George did not like him. I only liked Dan among all the other fake people there. George apparently likes them all. (Another reason to not like George anymore). Anyways so while we are standing around for like forever, I see Louise and George and Karine walk past us and Louise is crying. I figure I should let them be, since Karine comes to me and Dan and we continue to let time pass. Then they make us go and take a picture (which I didn't really get until later). It turns out Louise was upset because she asked the bitch if it would ruin her day if she got a picture with all of her daughter in laws. The bitch said that it would ruin her day. (not surprised) but apparently this shocked Louise. So she was upset because Fred didn't want her to go because he wasn't invited. and because the bitch was well, living up to her name.
Then we end up standing around some more before finally walking up to the hotel. We then had to sit around some more before we were offered only a few hor devoures. The tuna was ok but they served this stuff called Fua Gua ( duck liver) which was soo gross. I could not swallow it. Its like what is wrong with you people blehhhh. I wanted to actually puke. It was so bad. So we sit around till 6pm, two hours after we were supposed to be fed. Then they pass out these hard dinner rolls. The dinner table is shaped like a giant U and I am sat at the end next to the photographers. (am again not surprised). I noticed that the entire staff is asian and all the guests are white. Hmmmmm. Oh and her mother was not invited to the reception. they serve this lobster bisque stuff (bleh, not great but not horrid) then I ordered the duck. Instead of duck I got this weird steak like stuff which was supposed to be duck but tasted nothing like it. I was really hard and I could not eat it. The food was so gross. (I was thinking, damn this is what 300 bucks a person looks like.) They offered no regular drinks like coke or juice only wine and water. They did have a bar which only had alcohol. I had a really horrible time there. I did not dance at all either, because I didn't like anyone and I like to link a happy thing like dancing to happy events. I felt like I was in mourning. Louise was unhappy with the bitch but said something nice and full of shit to them anyways. Tons of people were al doing speeches and they kept saying that The bitch and Andrew were together for 6 years. Which is a ton of crock shit because I have only been with George for a little more than a year and I know that I was dating George for over a year before the bitch started dating Andrew. Blah blah blah had to sit around listening. George even considered saying something nice, and I was all why?> they didn't say anything for you. I did leave so that he could say whatever he wanted. I also needed to pee really bad. I was getting really uncomfortable and about 7 I was ready to go home.

This is when George really started treating me like shit. He said get up. So I respond with why? He then says, "you do what I say, you don't ask why." So im like Bullshit to that. I do am not a fucking servant. (I didn't say fucking). So we have an argument about this and I refuse to get up. George goes and becomes buddy buddy with the Bitch's people. while I am sitting with Karine. Then the bitch's friends tell us all to dance and of course George is not going to ask me to dance because he supposedly "doesn't dance". So we refuse. Finally it is after 9pm (I was going to leave without George) and he says we have to say goodbye to his brother and the bitch. Im like bullshit to that. Oh I forgot so the photographer comes up to us while the bitch is goign around the table getting pictures. The photographer was going to get a picture of Louise, the bitch, and George adn Karine (not me beccause I was with the photographers remember.) and the bitch goes, "no  don't want a picture of this. Lets go outside." Yeah rude as fuck. Ok back to saying goodbye.
So I want to leave so we just get up I figure I'll let stupid George say goodbye if he wants. He talks to his brother and then he dances with the bitch. Yes he actually dances with her and turns her around and everything. Which is what I told him that if he danced with her. I want a divorce. As far as I am concerned this is over. He apparently ignores me. So I take Karine and we leave. George is still dancing with the bitch and chatting with some people.

While driving home George actually pretends he did not dance with the bitch.

So now I am typing this and looking on Craigslist for apartments. I slept in the other room last night too. I cannot look at George and as far as I am concerned. I am single again. George doesn't hear me. It is like talking to a brick wall. The cat is mine though, he is cuddling with me right now. Unfortunately i might have to move into a studio apartment because I cannot afford anything else on my own. I might take Zeba and see if she wants to room with me. so yes that is all. What a waste of a day. I would rather have a root canal. I wish I was fred and didn't go.